I read a lot of blogs. I like getting to know the bloggers and their passions. I enjoy knowing that they're having a wonderful life and if they're not; they still power through. The whole 'blogging community' that I've read so much about is so fascinating to me. And now that I have a little blog all my own I've been thinking about how I want mine to be. Do I want to share this? Share about that? Is this even blog worthy? How do I get a really cool header like everyone else?
Most of the blogs I do read are generally really focused on one or two topics. They focus on these topics and then occasionally they'll bring up a side topic. Some are all over the board; "Look at this!" "Look at that!" "Look at those!" Sometimes it's nice to have that focus of having a "insert topic here" blog, but I don't think I have that focus in my life yet. I don't think I've ever had focus for one thing for very long actually. I like to find something, lets say a hobby, then I devote my entire life and being to said hobby. I spend my time looking for new supplies and inspiration for the hobby that I sometimes run out of time to actually do the hobby.
Lets bring up my sewing experience. Last year I made a few stuffed animals. I ended up making two stuffed animals with patterns and few were made 'freestyle' i.e. no patterns used. After making some of them I thought it would be fun to start selling them. I imagined a cute little booth at a craft fair filled with adorable little faces. I then started looking up how to even sell things at craft fair and the best way to create profit, generate a following, etc. I was so wrapped up in what could be and the future end result that I stopped making the stuffed animals. That's what happens every time. I get so caught up in how I want everything to 'end' essentially that I end all the projects. I get so overwhelmed trying to map out my path that I get lost on the path. (I've also noticed that I speak in metaphors. Thanks blog.)
I would like to start sewing again. I liked the process of making something out of nothing essentially. I also have a bunch of other crafting stuff that I'd like to get caught back up on. Life sorta got in the way but now I think I should be able to get everyhing started again. Now this timearound I won't be able to guarantee getting caught up in the 'what could be'. It's good motivation for me to actually do things some days. But now that I've called myself out; maybe I can talk myself down and stay focused in the now. I've got to enjoy the moments while I'm in them. Otherwise I'll just be a bitter old woman looking back on my life saying "I wish I had known how happy I actually was back then."
(Wow, that escalated quickly. See? I fixate on the end result in everything! Ha! Anyway! Back to the original topic.)
Long story short: It's easy to get caught up in the future, but I wont' have that future unless I work towards it now. So I have to stay focused and remind myself that I'm here in the present. I'll reach that future eventually but not without a little effort now. I still don't know what this blog will 'be' but I think right now I like the rambling topics. Its nice to get these thoughts out of my head.
Bye, bye, French Fries!
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